I continuously thank God for giving me the strength to get up and out of the bed in the mornings...
I often look at the calender and think to myself "Where did the last couple of weeks go?" It seems like such a blur now when I look back on all that has happened and try to wrap my head around everything. I try to remember all that has happened...all that I've experienced..all the things that I have said to people and things that have been said to me...
I still feel like I have some holes that are still there in my memory, but then again, maybe that is a good thing, and I should just let it go, and move forward.
I am so thankful for the remarkable physical healing that God has blessed me with. I think "looking" pregnant was the worst daily reminder of not coming home with my babies in the physical sense, and even though there is a slight scar, my pain and swelling has subsided very quickly. I still am getting tired by evening, but am trying to spend as much happy time with the family as I can. Keeping busy and surrounded by the ones you love keep you occupied :) We have been trying to spend a little more time at the pool, lake, and library before summer is over and signed Bryce up for soccer today!!
People often ask me how are you doing it? The only answer I can give is that I am at peace. I'm not saying that I don't cry everyday, because I do. I cry because I miss my babies and what they could have been, but I don't blame God or anyone. I don't blame myself . I have to share a passage from a devotional that my good friend Ashley sent to me that really spoke to me,
"Let me show you My way for you this day. I guide you continually, so you can rekax and enjoy My Prescence in the present. Living well is both a discipline and an art. Concentrate on staying close to Me, the divine Artist. Discipline your thoughts to trust me as I work My ways in your life. Pray about everything; then leave outcomes up to Me. do not fear My will, for through it, I will accomplish what is best for you. Take a deep breath and dive into the depths of absolute trust in Me. Underneath are the everlasting arms."
I once again hope that through my family's loss someone can find hope and peace in a situation that he or she might be going through. Sometimes it can be hard to put a smile on your face, but I do it for me, Michael and my four babies. It can be done. Thank you all again for all the prayers! Love, The Cantey's
- ▼ July (9)
- The Canteys
- I am married to my highschool sweetie and together we have two very active but very loving children, Gracie and Bryce. I work part time as a pediatric dental hygienist and am a fulltime cook, cleaner, and driver :) I love all my jobs and thank God everyday for getting me to where I am...